When I'm Gone

Hi all.
I'm utterly disappointed in myself. I didn't study at all today, didn't even do my homework. Mugged the whole day. But today passed by quite fast. I need to change my character. I don't want to be immature anymore. I miss being in Secondary. Its true when they say you'll love Secondary more than Primary. Ok well enough with the school crap.
Mum was on Skype the whole day, I didn't feel like talking to her. Honestly, I don't like talking to my mother through the phone or computer. I want to be with her. Ok, no more of my mother. See my title ? " When I'm Gone " by Eminem. He's a good role model. My idol. He's better than BoA & Gin. Really, he lived in a crappy place and his father left the family when Eminem was 18 months old. Eminem's mother had to work and raise him all by herself. And they weren't very well off either. Eminem suffered all of this, but he was able to pull through. His songs all have meanings, he wrote them all by himself. Not like others whom ask their managers or whatever people to write songs for them. Eminem goes solo. All his songs are deep & sentimental. Its pretty weird that I'm talking about Eminem now, since I don't know him. Haha, well Eminem's dope okay. - change of topic now -
I think I'm too violent ? Haha, suddenly I don't feel like annoying people. I think I'm annoying. I think I'm not nice enough. I think I'm too violent. I'm going to change my character. I'm just going to ignore people now, making a big fuss over nothing is lame. I'm lame. Well I want to change now. Its true when they say, " When you've lost something important, you start to change "
Well I'm changing now. I'm changing quite slowly, but its better than nothing. I guess I'm happy with the way I've matured. I should be.  :) 
Oh this is such a short post isn't it ? Haha, shall read the bible now. 
Goodnight all, sweet dreams. God bless.


" Nowadays I just keep thinking about you " - ♥