Lightless.

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Here's another long-winded post. How many posts have I posted about Su Hyun ? Haha. Cause here's another one.

Heard the unplugged version of Lightless today. I was drinking milk and when the downloading process finished, the song played out loud. And I swear, my heart stopped. The song was so familiar. And it brought back memories. No, I didn't cry. But my heart did. 

Remember December ? How long we waited for Beautiful, Lights Go On Again & Lightless to be out. We promised to dance everyday and learn all of B2ST dances. But at that time, the whole of MCS was spazzing over B2ST, so we told everyone to listen to Teentop, but we ourselves got addicted to Teentop ! :) But I guess you could say it was a short obsession. Then DBSK came along, you got addicted to it. U-KNOW YUNHO ! Then now Super Junior. And I'm still crazy over Taemin in SHINee. But know what ? B2ST will still forever be my number one. Cause it was what brought us back together again. We owe B2ST alot don't we. I remember in December, I didn't even feel like going out with my cousins just because I wanted our sleepover to last longer. I remember how fun that sleepover was. And I remember the first time I brought you to church. You thought it was pretty crazy there right ? Haha.

You know why you're my best friend ? My #1 and not anyone else ?

You're not like those girls who only want popular or pretty people as their friends.

You're not like those girls who always gossip.

You're not like those girls like fashion and shopping. 

You're like me, you're a tomboy.

You're a dancer, and you aspire to be a dancer. 

You're extremely understanding, much more understanding than anyone else.

We both have our differences, but you don't really care.

Best of all ? We're in different countries. Who knows how many miles apart we are. But our friendship, its as strong as it used to be. In fact, its stronger. 

Yeah, I do admit, I won't talk to you about everything. I won't talk to you about SHINee, I won't talk to you about relationships and... actually, those are the only two things. 

Everytime before I sleep, I listen to music, and when a B2ST/DBSK/SUJU song starts playing, I start thinking of you. My life flashes, I remember how we used to tweet " Bam bam bam, bam bam bam bam, bam bam bam BASAKAN ~ " Haha, I really miss those times. I remember once when Gigi invited me to BBQ, I asked what time it would be. And she said 6pm. And I started screaming because that meant I could only have 2hours left to chat with you. She thought I was crazy. But I wasn't, I just happen to talk really long with you. From the moment my eyes open all the way till they close. Remember the first time I watched B2ST Almighty ? I really miss those times. I'm going to watch it again, after my exams. 

You say you're not smart, but you are. Do you know, I have been secretly looking u to you all this while ? I want to be as good as you. I want to be as smart as you. I remember how envious I was of you on our PSLE results day. I remember how happy I was t have passed PSLE. To have passed Maths for the first time. But then, I realized that everyone was getting higher than me. And then I saw you at the back, I walked towards you. You were smiling so much with your mum. And you told me how much you got. 40 marks higher than me. I smiled, I was extremely happy for you. But at the same time, I hated mself for not studying hard enough. For not putting enough effort to be as good as you. And now I hate myself even more, because I feel like I'm the reason why you're deproving in your studies. Cause I made you develop insomnia and I " taught " you how to gve excuses to not do your work. Fuck myself /:

I'm chatting with you on Skype now, we're playing the Dating B2ST game. Say No started playing, and it made my heart cry again. I remember so much about that song. I remember how I would spend the whole day listening to it. I remember how much I loved that song. Shock Of the New Era was the firsrt CD you lent me. I played it everyday you know. And now we played the Dating B2ST game again, I got Dongwoon and Mystery started playing. And now Bad Girl is playing, its the very first song I ever heard. It brings back so many memories, remember how hard I fell for Kikwang ? Haha. Now Beast is the B2ST is playing. Omg, so many memories are flashing infront of me now. Honestly, Kikwang isn't as charming as he used to be :p He's still cute in Bad Girl & Beast is the B2ST. But Hyunseung still looks cute in all the MVs. Remember how I always said you looked like Hyunseung ? you really do look like him. Big eyes. 

Everytime I see him in the sings that appeared in the first album, I start thinking of you :) Hey do I sound like a pedo now ?! Kekeke. B2ST reminds me so much of you, and December, and MCS. It makes me think a lot about the past when I used to go crazy over KPOP. Well I still do ok, remember that. I'll love B2ST forever.

And you ? You'll be my number one best friend forever. I don't care where I am, or whatever, you're still my best friend. Even when the earth stops moving, or when the sun stops shining, you'll still be my number one best friend, forever.
And you guys wanna know who this wonderful girl is ? 
Kim Su Hyun.

Happy 7 years, 5 months, 17 days, 22 hours and 40 minutes, my dearest best friend.