Back To You

Hi bloggers. B2ST's new album came out, Fiction And Fact. * spazzes * 
Ok, I'm supposed to be much much much more happier thank this but I'm in a really sad mood now so I shall skip the pretending-to-be-happy phase. 
Just got off the phone with my dearest mummy. I want to be in Hong Kong, to be with my best friend Zorrow. Only because of Zorrow. I want to be in Singapore for Su Hyun & Yi Jun. But mainly for Su Hyun [ Sorry Jun ] Cause Su Hyun's done so much for me and I miss her like crazy. I miss you Su Hyun, I really miss you alot. I can't stop listening to B2ST. And I also want to be in Malaysia, with my dearest mummy and beloved cousins. My brothers & sisters, uncles & aunties. Those who were there for me and protected me during the incident.
I know this sounds crazy that I want to be with my mummy again. I still can't forget all the torture that she's done to me. All the abuse, everything. But I know that everything she did for me was on a moment of impulse, she was merely angry. I know she wanted to take her anger out on someone, and I was the only person she could take it out on. I know she regrets everything now and I forgive her for everything, just like she's forgiven me. But I don't want to talk about this now. I want someone to tell me why I can't be in three places in one time. Tell me why everything's not working out for me. Tell me why once I'm gone, I start missing everything I never treasured. Tell me why I'm such an effing greedy person till I want to have so many people beside me. Tell me why God wants me to be such a strong person till he gives me so many problems to solve.
But then again, time will tell. Will time decide fate ? Who knows.
P.S : I'm hooked onto animes again, I am currently addicted to One Piece. 


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