Preparing for the NBA ft. Jeremy Lin (Ep. 30)

HAHAHHAH I laughed so hard.

This was released on my birthday!!!!!!!!!! :)

yay for jumba + linsanity

Life keeps on going

Okay so I'm going to blog about a few things today.

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1. I realized a lot of my so-called friends... No..  accquaintences, dislike me.
Of course it happens to me in Singapore too but when those sluts bitch about it, they do it disecretly. What's saddening is how I've been insulted face to face in Hong Kong. It's almost like people here don't give a shit to your feelings. Other people's sadness seems to bring joy to them, as though it's supposed to be funny that you hurt someone? It's like, insulting people and making them feel bad is a must. There's something very wrong with SIS... In some ways, MCS and YCKSS are much better schools than SIS.

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2. I re-read my past conversations with a certain someone just now and it's quite saddening how I'm not going to be able to re-live those moments. To clear things up, I don't like him anymore. No feelings, zilch. I just miss how we used to be. I miss how I used to have someone who said the sweetest things to me, just to make my day but nah... That's never going to happen again, considering how all the guys in my grade are such awkward hermit crabs. 

"If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday, to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine."

"Knowing that I can chat with you online is the only reason why i get out of bed, knowing that I'll see you in school is the only reason why I go there, knowing that you are happy is the only reason why I'm happy, knowing that you love me is the only reason why I'm still alive."

I miss the memories. Nothing more.

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3. I haven't done this for quite a logn time. Schedule of the week!

Tuesday- Cross Roads! It's to learn how refugees live and stuff. Which means no lessons! :) & I'm doing my Geography project after school. *sighs*

Wednesday- Netball match... I'm quite scared. Considering how the only good players in the entire netball CCA are Kirsten, Amelia & Yatlai. I feel so suck compared to them... They've been playing netball for so long... & Humanities evening. Up till today, I still don't know what that is. I think it's to showcase our projects? OH INTERCLASS BADMINTON COMPETITION STARTS ON WEDNESDAY TOO....

Thursday- Stupiak Netball CCA that I want to quit. I'll be ditching though, cause I have to complete my Geography project.

Friday- Dinner @ le best friend's house then RIVER!!!! :) Hehehe yayy

Saturday- Hopefully going out?

Sunday- CHURCH CHURCH CHURCH. I'm defos going this week, I don't care if I'm sick or tired. 

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4. Xi'An trip! My school organized a school trip, it's called WoW trip.

We're going to Xi'An! Whoop! We're staying in a hotel too, which means we get to eat hotel breakfast and hotel breakfasts are always the best. Rooming with Vicky & Karina! We managed to get the three-bed room. (Eh no dirty thoughts.) Hahah I'm excited for some reason. 12 more days to Xi'An yaaaay

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5. I might be leaving for Malaysia next year... Believe me, I don't want to go. I really want to stay in SIS (i think?) There are a lot of downsides in SIS. So many change is good but... I'm tired. I'm tired of constantly migrating, making new friends then leaving them one by one. Friends that are dear to me. To be honest, I wouldn't mind leaving... I'd just miss my freedom, and like a couple of friends. 

I don't know, my mind's a whirl. Sure I miss staying with my mother. And I even have a new house in Malaysia, and my room's in a Korean design, what's not to love about that? Ugh I wish my life didn't have this much bullcrap going on. I've been through enough, I don't want to go through more.

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6. Caught up on all my One Piece & Fairy Tail episodes. And watched One Piece movie 10 "Strong World" (Thank you Hui Lynn for the awesome link!) Fairy Tail episode 114 made me tear up ahhaha it was really sweet. Not sure why I even included this in a point... Anime ftw? :) 

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7. Signed up for Interclass Badminton competition. Uhm my class is again S1K (wah shit) Compeition starts on Wednesday. Signed up for 100m & 200m for Sports Day that's going to take place in April. So wish me luck? Really hope I get to win something this year, like a bronze at least ahah. Good luck to me.

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My dad's been screaming at me for 5 minutes to eat dinner now so bye :)

Happy 7th Anniversary

Haha apparently I forgot to post this too! Made this in January for my 7th year best friend anniversary with Su Hyun :) Yep, watch it & like it! All the pictures were taken a few years back so pardon me for my very weird face. Love you Chameleon! Best friends forever :')

Jesus; Our almighty saviour

I just realized that I didn't post the video that I made about Jesus so here it is.

I didn't do this so I could go to heaven. I didn't do this to get praises from my friends. I didn't do this to get compliments from people, no. I did it because God spoke to me and he wanted me to preach his word. I did this because I love God and I do what God tells me to do. God has saved the lives of many, he's suffered for many but yet all of us don't seem to realize how much God loves us. Sometimes you think God isn't there with you but whatever he does... he has a reason for it. He is protecting you. He won't tell you the reason because he good deeds don't have to be bragged about. Appreciate all that the Lord's done for you because no one loves you more than He does.

I love God.

Do you?

Valentine's Day

To be honest, I don't even know what Valentine's Day supposed to mean.

I've never experienced it with anyone.

So exactly what do people do on Valentine's Day?

Go on dates? Hold hands? Hug each other? Give gifts?

Isn't that just like... being in a relationship but just for a day? 

Valentine's Day seriously makes no sense to me... It's the so called day to confess your love to your crush right? But we're all so bloody shy aren't we? We won't dare. How easy would all our lives be if we were fearless bastards. We could just easily walk up to our crush and say,

 "Hey. I've liked you for a really long time. Be mine?" <- Like that'll ever happen. 

But you know what's even more saddening? Is that when two people like each other and they know it, almost the whole world knows it, yet they still don't want to be together. Obviously when you like someone, you want to be with that person. Or what, continue awkwardly crushing on each other? 

To all those people who are ready to confess their feelings to that special someone tomorrow (Valentine's Day) Good job to you. 

I wonder what those non-couples that have Valentines actually do. They continue life as per normal right? Go to school and awkwardly make eye contact, thinking, "Oh dear. What do I do? Do I go up to him/her? Do I say "Happy Valentine's Day"? Nono that's too awkward..." 

Shouldn't Valentine's Day be a day where people get to openly express their feelings? To ask people to go on dates with them after school holding hands and having heart to heart talks? Or is this just another fantasy of mine. Valentine's Day isn't about the roses or the chocolates, NO. It's a chance for you to tell the person you like how much you feel for them, instead of just keeping it all inside and waiting then regretting when that person finds someone else. 

Once again, I go back to my shallow-minded self.

Guys, why can't you just bloody find the courage to ask the girl you like out?

Of course guys have feelings but you know how shy girls are! We never take the first move because we're constantly waiting for guys to do it! Yeah of course it's shitty unfair but... Most girls have this mentality. 

I just wish that one day, I'll be able to experience being with someone on Valentine's Day, and not just awkwardly making eye contact. Actually going out. It'd be nice. Hah, but guys in my grade are such awkward hermit turtles (super shy when it comes to feelings and relationships) so I shall have to wait for another 3 years... And to all those people in my grade, no offence. But you have to admit that most of you are like this :P 

^ Awww so cute. Hahaha I might actually fall for a guy who does that. What am I saying, I'm out of my mind. Anyway, to those who have dates or are in a relationship, hope that you guys will have a great day tomorrow! And to those who are about to confess, you're awesome. :-) 

Happy Valentine's Day everyone x

Things you don't know

My thumb is too cool for a hi-5

If I were to date a guy,

1) He'd have to be taller than me. Not just by a bit, considering the fact that I'm already super short.

2) He'd have to love me a bit more than I love him. And that kind of a guy is hard to find, considering the fact that when I like someone, I like him... A lot. I guess what I've learnt is that, if you find someone who loves you more than you love him, the relationship's going to last a lot longer.

3) He has to take the initiative. The first move, etc.

4) Got to be older! Because then he'll probably have a more mature mind than younger guys...

You all are probably all thinking, "Holy crap Isabel is such a shallow person." Yeah yeah whatever.

I'm fine with girls being treated the same as guys and I hate it when girls whine about how their boyfriends playing too much video games but I do think that guys should be the one asking the girl out, texting her first and all those things. To those girls who are like that, leave the poor dude alone. He needs some bloody personal space. I'm not sure if it's just me but I think that if girls did all the asking out and stuff, it's quite awkward. Sorry if this offended anyone in anyway. It just feel more sweeter + natural for the guy to ask.

^^^ Those 3 are one of the main things I'd look for in a guy. Athletic ability + ability to play any instruments, (mainly the piano) are major bonuses. 

But what's most important is that I want a guy to have the same mindset as me. Up till today, I've never met anyone who's like that. Or maybe I'm just way too picky... 

How often can I find a guy who likes kpop, watches the same anime as I do, listens to 王力宏 and enjoys dancing? And I don't want a guy who literally changes his whole character just to suit me... I'd rather date someone who was himself. 

To be honest, I don't like people unless I know they like me first. I'm quite insecure... Which is why I've only liked 2 people in my 14 years of life. What amuses me most is how I'm not like a lot of girls. 99% of all the girls I know like guys with abs and 10 packs, bulging arm muscles and all but I don't. I get kind of grossed out... I mean, abs are cool. Sure. But I prefer skinny guys... Guys who actually do have muscles, but they're so skinny that you wouldn't even notice. <- Definition of 'hot' to me. I bet that you're thinking, "Isabel is so weird..." No worries, I get that a lot. 

I'd like it if a guy was sensitive and sweet. Wouldn't all girls? 

Someone who tells you you're beautiful. Who compliments you... Haha okay I'm getting all corny again. My point is, I'd really like a guy who says the sweetest of things to me everyday. Just to make sure a smile's on my face. But guys that nice are usually all taken by those lucky girls. 

To sum it all up, even if you're a guy that has everything listed in the above ^^^^ (Highly doubt so)

But you don't have a charm...

I won't like you. ;) 

Hah, yes a guy must have a charm in order for me to like him.

 And now, ending off with a few pictures that I took during ICT class in school. Such bamfs!

Me and my bast fran

Bye x

Judgemental society

We're being judged all day everyday.

Because our society is full of judgemental assholes.

Who are we kidding.

Everyone in this world judges you no matter what you're like.

Words hurt.

 It feels that nowadays, whatever you say or do.

You will get judged.

You will get insulted.

People will start criticizing you.

You wonder why some people end up cutting and committing suicide?

It's because they're so weak and fragile inside. Every single insult that they've tolerated builds up day by day and it kills them so much till one they, they just go crazy and do the scariest things.

People are never what they seem to be.

Happy on the outside, but on the inside... We're all hiding a dirty little secret.

A secret that we're all too scared to share because of the judgemental bastards of this century.

If you're skinny, you end up being called malnutritioned. If you're not, you're called fat. If you wear revealing clothes, you're automatically a slut, if you wear too much, you're weird. If you put make up on, you're a fake, if you don't, you're ugly. 

We're wondering why so many teenagers die everyday.

Why you ask?

You DARE ask WHY?

Society. Is the answer.

Society kills many.

Some people wonder why others smoke, do drugs, ink and drink till they're drunk.

But have you ever asked yourself,

Would they have done it...

If their friends hadn't said, 

"Hah. Coward."

"Loser."

"Chicken."

"Pussy." 

And you wonder why girls put on so much make up?

Because they're fucking, insecure.

And you can't blame them because YOU're the ones that's causing them to be like that.

"Ugh look at her, so ugly." <- No make up.

"Major slut, look at the make up she's wearing." <- With make up.

Seriously? What the heck does society want from us?! 

Let me ask you, is there anything wrong with people wanting to look more beautiful?

Is there anything wrong with people who want to feel better about themselves?

When people go on a diet, they don't do it just because they feel that they should. 

90% of teenagers do it because of weight insults.

Been there, done that.

Yes, I have been insulted on my weight before.

"Oh my god Isabel you're so fat now."

"Woah you gained so much weight."

"Hey, when did you become so fat?"

"Isabel's so fat now."

These thoughts are constantly being replayed in my mind over and over again. Sometimes, I can't stand it and I feel like "Fuck the world. Might as well just end 2012 by myself." 

Yes, suicide thoughts. I've starved myself a lot and because of that, I'm getting stomachaches almost every single day. My stomach growls 24/7 and it hurts so much when I go to sleep but I keep thinking, "NO. You can't eat. You're going to grow fat and ugly and everyone's going to insult you."

I'm extremely self-conscious. I want to look good. I want to be like those pretty skinny girls with super photogenic looks but I'm fucking not. I've been judged... A thousand times. Being constantly called a slut and a flirt for hanging out with too many boys. Being called a "tomboy" because I love watching football and I love sports. The fuck?

What has the world turned into?

So in my conclusion?

This society, 

HAS been.

CURRENTLY is.

FOREVER and ALWAYS

WILL be.

A society full of judgemental assholes.

Where I'd rather be

So all of you know me as a crazy ass KPOP fan. Yes, very true. But if I were to choose where I could stay, my very first choice. My TOP choice. The place that I really want to stay in, is JAPAN!!!!! I love Japanese food more than anything else. Their apple juice is AMAZING too btw and they sell ALOT of cute things and their clothes there are like, super cool and stuff. And!!! They sell anime things that you can't normally find in other countries. I went to Tokyo once with my father but I didn't appreciate it and I was an ass to him so I really regret it now. I REALLY want to go to Japan. I'm always very jealous of people who take pictures there and stuff :( Anyway I just really love Japan because they have the most TASTIEST food in the entire world. And what's better than drinking Miso Soup from its origin??? Ah Japanese food = heaven.
(p.s: bring me to eat at a Japanese restaurant if you want to celebrate my birthday with me) HAHAHA I'm just kidding. I'll eat there myself :-)
I just really super duper uber love the food in Japan. Best I've ever tasted. Looking for some place to go during Easter/March/Summer? GO. TO. JAPAN. And focus on the food, not sightseeing xD you can do that on your way to another restaurant!

My second would of course be Korea!!!!!! I COULD GO TO ANY STORE AND BUY KPOP POSTERS!!!! WOOHHOOO! But there's a lot of food I can't take there because it's spicy so... I won't get to try a lot their delicacies etc. But of course there's still going to be a lot more non-spicy food I can try! Food from Korea is like super tasty too. I would know because I went to my friend's house to eat Korean food! Whoop! Plus a lot of clothes that I but online are from Korea. And the clothes are actually really pretty :O and and MAYBE I might see KPOP stars roaming the streets and I'd be like a screaming fan girl HAHAHAH awks!

And lastly!! Australia!!!! I love that place because it's so full of nature and animals. Especially horses and I really love horses. That's the only thing I like about Australia actually. Oh the scenery is BEAUTIFUL there. Absolutely amazing.

But yeah, I would really love to move to Japan. REALLY. Going there for a family holiday trip would be fine too! One of my MUST DO(s) in life is to go to Japan when I'm older with a friend of mine, who also loves Japan! And obviously one of my MUST DO(s) is go to Korea with Su Hyun. Duh!

Anyway I sent an email to Su Hyun today and we cleared our problems... We misunderstood each other the whole time!!! Haha but we're good now! And I sent an email to someone else. It might have been the biggest mistake of my life or I might have just done myself a huge favour.
Yepp, I'm off now. Cheeri-o

Day 2; Crushes

Day 2: Write about your crush. Write anything: if you’re friends, don’t talk, it’s going great or it’s complicated.

I don't have a crush, honest. Used to, but now, no. 

Like I said in my previous post, I'm scared of liking people cause I don't want to end up with a broken heart and all. I like Cho Kyuhyun. Because he has a beautiful voice. :) 

But I'm too lazy to think about crushes and being in a relationship now because what most of you don't know... Rephrase. What all of you don't know, is that I'm really into art. Not any kind of art. My art. 

Maybe one day when I finish another piece, I'll take pictures. I already finished two really nice ones but I gave them away, sadly :( 

Aight that's the end of this post. 

I'm off to... Do art. 

bye.

Let's run away now

Hi, I just came back from Singapore. <- Reason why I haven't blogged in 10 days.
Spent 4 days in Malaysia, came back and went to USS with my cousins, mum, cousin's parents and Gordon. omb the Transformers ride was SO bloody cool. Best stimulator EVER.
Stayed at Hard Rock Hotel for one night yeaaaay :-) Then I had a gathering with my fellow YCK schoolmates. I miss them so much.. I really regret leaving YCK. I wish I could go back :'(
Anyway, I didn't get to meet up with a lot of people, Su Hyun and my neighbours for example. Paige and Nikki too. It's really depressing since I have no idea when I'm going back to SG again. And I didn't see my banana friend :(
Nonetheless, no more regrets cause I'm back in HK. I'm kinda looking forward to living in my Malaysia house, whoop?
Okay, 'nuff talk. I'm going to do a 15 day challenge! -applause-
(I don't know if I've done it before but nevermind, I'll do it again!)

15 DAY CHALLENGE

Day 1: Write 5 things that sum you up. Include a picture with 1 or more of these things.
Day 2: Write about your crush. Write anything: if you’re friends, don’t talk, it’s going great or it’s complicated.
Whatever it is, write it down. Pictures optional.
Day 3: What’s the meaning behind your URL? Why did you make a blog?
Day 4: Is there drama in your life just now with friends and/or family? Write about it.
Day 5: What are you grateful for?
Day 6: Are you a virgin? Yes/no, discuss it.
Day 7: Write about how you do your makeup/hair. Why do you do it that way?
Day 8: Write about your ideal partner in detail. Does your crush match the criteria? If no, talk about that.
Day 9: What is your definition of the word hate? Talk about 3 things you hate.
Day 10: What is your definition of the word love? Talk about 3 things you love.
Day 11: Your fears?
Day 12: Are you happy with how you look?
Day 13: Post a picture of yourself and write what you see.
Day 14: Post a picture of a friend and write what you see.
Day 15: If you could, would you rather live in the early 1900’s?

Day 1: Write 5 things that sum you up. Include a picture with 1 or more of these things.

1- I'm super super emotional, sensitive and insecure. I'm honestly not who I seem to be. Very few people have ever seen the emotional side of me or like, heard my thoughts that I never dared to tell others.

2- I haven't faced reality yet. I KNOW I haven't but I'm trying to. You see, I do things without knowing. Like, you know people get excited when they're about to board a plane or something? I don't. I just stand there and I feel like I'm a spirit just roaming around. It's really weird and scary... I feel like I'm living a dream. A very long one. 

3- Insane over KPOP. <- Doesn't everyone know? :-) 

4- I take love and relationships very seriously. I plan ahead and organize alot. When I like someone, I take a really long time to consider if they're worth liking or not. Why? Cause I'm scared that one day, my marriage will turn out like my parent's one. So I'm really, really scared to get attached to people easily. But it's quite hard for me not to, because I know some guys who can listen to all my problems and not get annoyed by my non-stop blabbering. And I'm literally crazy over musically talented guys. Especially guys who play the piano. If you're a guy and if you were playing and piano and if I walked past you, I'd be staring at you play the piano till you stop. No joke.

5- I'm always too lazy to do homework or study for exams... I'm supposed to be doing my English homework now. But.. I'm not...

I'm quite tempted to watch some shows now...

So maybe I will....

Or not...

Who am I kidding. I'm not even hardworking enough to unpack my suitcase, let alone do homework.

bye!