What do I want?

What do I want? Bitch I want you to shut up.
What's the problem with me? Bitch I can't study without you screaming at me.
I'm sorry. I'm just very upset right now. Crying, in fact. My mother's screaming at me. She thinks I'm not trying to study. My fucking maths teacher wanted me to stay back for Maths tuition and sent my parents an email. My mum's currently on the phone scolding me, screaming at me, not give a single fuck about how I'm feelings. Like as though EVERY FUCKING THING is my fault. Isn't it? Yeah, giving birth to me was my fault. The divorce was my fault. MY stupidity too.
"I don't want to  talk to you anymore" Bitch please. Like I want to talk to you.
You've traumatised me enough. Since I was born, everythign you've done has scarred me. Does this make you happy? The fact that I'm always the one at fault, causing everything, your illness. Every. Single. Thing. Is. My. Fault. Are you happy now? Is this what you wanted? CAUSE THIS. IS WHAT YOU FUCKING GET. I can't believe you said that to me just now, "You're not fit to be in SIS. Might as well go to a mental hospital. NO IQ SCHOOL. After all you don't study." And I'm only studying so that when I grow up, I'll be some rich ass millionaire who can support her fucking PRADA and GUCCI needs. Bitch just go work yourself, you're not over-age yet. Dad's the same age as you and has he stopped working? NO. Stepmum's so much younger than you, but she's already made plans for her future, she wants to earn money to take away Dad's burden. HEY WHAT ABOUT YOU? SIT ON YOUR BED, WATCHING SOME FUCKING DRAMA WHILE SCOLDING ME ON THE PHONE? Yeah what a productive day.
Well while you're fucking sleeping, I'm fucking studying in school and Dad's fucking working his butt off. So why not you go.. Oh I don't know, kidnapp some aliens, go clubbing... GET. A. JOB?
Oh and here's a reality check for you, my world, Dad's world, does NOT revolve around you. So don't even try going around shooting your mouth talking about people's flaws, when YOU, clearly have a lot of flaws too. WE on the other hand, acknowledge our flaws. And once again, I say this. "Try putting yourself in my shoes for once. I bet you couldn't even walk a mile without breaking down." You don't know what it's like to be me so shut up. I happen to have a life that I want to live and I want to live it according to my own wants and needs. Not what you wish, want and need to have.

Really want to thank Su Hyun for being with me during the call... Now you guys know why Su Hyun's my best friend. Cause she fucking gets it. I swear I love her so much. Always knows what I'm thinking.
Thanks to Nick too, for talking to me and being such a nice senior. So I've cheered up now, I'm still quite upset but let's just say my mood's better. Oh and my mum ended the call, just so you know. :-)