Eh nevermind!
I've been camwhoring a lot nowadays. Yesyes I'm weird like that.
OCTOBER BREAK IS HERE SO F YEAH BITCHES!
Anyway! My plans for the October break!
- Go for the first service of church every week.
- Meet up on the 17th, 20th and 21st to do my Eng project with my group members.
- Watch Real Steel with my buddies.
- Make it for my swimming competition practice on the 23rd.
- Finish all my homework before this week ends.
- Lose all my fats.
Yep, thats about it! Oh, and I almost forgot, CLARA DERMAWAN HAS BEEN OFFICIALLY BORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's my baby sister. And she's coming home tomorrow! :') Can't wait to see her!
He & I are friends now. Not that we talk online or anything anymore, but we're actually starting to talk in school. Like in group conversations. Sometimes we'd look right into each others eyes but just for a split second. Falling into his shimmering eyes.... sigh. I'm not over him. I keep telling myself that I am, but I'm just not. I just can't accept the fact that we're not together anymore, and I'm so jealous of how so many of my friends are in relationships right now. Having the feeling of a guy who loves you and can't wait to talk to you? I want that feeling again. And not just like, normal guy friends who talk to me.. I want a guy who gives me that feeling when my heart skips a beat. He gave me that feeling. He still does but yknow.... He doesn't like me anymore. But forget all that! We're over. There's no more hope. We're just friends. Nothing else.
My friends are constantly asking me if I have a crush or a boyfriend. "You? You don't have a boyfriend? Yeah right!" <- My friend JUST said that to me.
What. Is it that shocking? I don't have a boyfriend, and a crush. Done and sealed. How do you expect me to go crushing on guys in my school? Let's just say that almost 100% of them are insensitive. And they're probably not ready for any relationships yet!
I wouldn't like a guy who doesn't like me back. I wouldn't like a guy who likes me but doesn't want to go public. Really? So you expect me to just watch you talk to other girls and be all like "Oh yeah I'm cool with it." No. No I'm not. I happen to be extremely sensitive and I get jealous. Very easily.
So to clear all your doubts, I do not have a crush and a boyfriend and I do not think I will be getting one, anytime soon. Nuff said.
Day 1: 1wish.
Day 2: 2 of your most emotional memories.
Day 3: 3 goals you want to accomplish.
Day 4: 4 regrets.
Day 5: 5 reasons to smile today.
Day 6: 6 memorable things people have said to you.
Day 7: 7 of your most evil moments.
Day 8: 8 places or days you’d like to go back to.
Day 9: 9 injuries you’ve had.
Day 10: 10 people you’d want to go on a date with.
Day 1:
1 wish huh?
Well, I honestly can't decide. Really. I have 2 wishes! One is for me to have been born a boy so my family wouldn't have been so complicated. And the other is for him & me to go back to the way it was before and change things before they ended up like this. I don't know. I can't decide, I really can't. He means a lot to me... like, A LOT. And so does my family... /: He literally, changed my life. But my family brought me up. He was the reason I matured, but my family taught me everything else.
Well, how to you expect me to choose? I can't. So, I'll just leave it at that. 2 wishes. I won't choose and I don't think I'll ever be able to.
FOREVER CAMWHORING :-)
^ Specs made for the midget.
^ Just like the picture says. Bye! :-)
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