Thank you , Elaine & Yi Jun :')

Elaine , thank you for making everything right . Thank you for putting sense into me . Thank you for telling me all this . Thank you for caring so much . Thank you for putting a smile across my face . Thank you for making me making me understand , what I did to myself . Although your message wasn't verbal . It felt like a real speech some pastor would say to me while I was in Church . Thank you for everything . Thank you , really :') I cried while reading your message but its worth it . I've never received something like this before , in my life . Thank you for cheering me up . Thank you , for everything . 

 Isabel! I know what you're going through. We all do. Everyone will go through         this phase of hating the world at some point of their lives. You're feeling sad and you're doing all these harmful things to yourself. But guess what. It's not going to change a damn thing. Your mother isn't going to change, the society isn't going to change, time won't stop for you and you can't do anything about it. Shit happens, so what. Your mom may have called you retarded, my dad called my a fucked up child, literally, but life still goes on. Your mom compares you to maids? My dad compares me to my own brother. That's worse than being compared to anything else in the world. Feeling sad is alright, but harming yourself isn't. By all means dance all day, but don't starve yourself. Eat. Like a Queen. If you just go on water you'll get water retention and look fat. Do you really want that? Didn't think so. Don't waste your life on drugs and cigarettes. They're a waste of your time. Those pictures on your blog really made me lose my appetite. But what really scared me was the fact that you cut yourself. Nothing is worth you hurting yourself. Nothing. You may not care about your life right now, but trust me when i say this, you will. In the near future. How about instead of harming yourself, just get a private diary and write everything down. Don't throw away any papers, just rant. You'll see in a few years time that what you did to yourself is really stupid. You have friends cheering you up all the time. Take note that those are your real friends. They accept you when you're at your worst. You may not "have" your mom right now, but at least you've got great friends.
Just remember: Live your life. This is no rehearsal.
So live it right, with no regrets.

Thank you Yi Jun , for telling me all this , iloveyou ! (: Thank you for always being here for me , especially during the days when I cried in school , you hugged me and told me everything was okay . I really appreciated it . No one has ever done that for me before . You cried for me and you even helped me to tell the teachers my problem . I'll never make it up to you , I swear , but really . You're the kindest and most caring person I've known in my whole life . Thank you for standing by my side even when I throwed tantrums and gave you the attitude .  iloveyou(:

  Thank you Elaine , thank you Yi Jun . You two are awesome . iloveyouguys(: