So I'm back , haha . Its my second say in SG Int . I did say that I hated t a first cause of the uniform being all nerdy and stuff but the school's pretty awesome . My classmates are adorable . Those people who are shorter than me or around my height look like chipmunks . I feel like squeezing them . I think I've remembered all my classmates names , cheers (:
. A lot of things remind me of YCKSS , like seriously . 2 kids remind me of my childhood friends , 5 kids remind me of YCKSS students . I'm homesick , I miss everyone . I hope this time , things are going to be better . Get a boy best friend ? Haha , dream come true (: I've always wanted one . I'm not in the mood to blog today , I'm not in the mood for anything . Not in the mood to do sports , dance, talk , anything . I think I'm crazy .
Can I get one this time round ? Please ... ?
This is a message to my kor , its okay if you don't read (:
Kor , I know you're going through a hard time , but I don't know how to help you . I know me telling you to cheer up won't work . I really wish I was back in SG to tell you everything's going to be ok . I wish I was there to lend you my shoulder to cry on . I wish I was there to help , but I'm not . I'm here and I really can't bear to see you sad . And I can't even do anything . I don't understand what you're going through and I can't do anything . You've helped me and cheered me up on my sad days . You've enlightened me and encouraged me and yet I can't do anything now when you're sad . I'm truly sorry .You're the best kor I've ever had and I want you to know that . I hope you can move on one day . You've sacrificed yourself and you've done noble things . You're hurting inside , but tell yourself its worth it for her . I can't do anything right now , but I want you to be the happy person I knew , I don't want you to stay in this sad phase any longer , it makes me really sad too . I've never seen you this upset before and I don't want to ever see you this upset ever again . I want you to live your life happy . You're an extremely nice guy , I swear , you'd make an awesome boyfriend . You won't have trouble finding someone else (:
You rock , and iloveyou(:
Oh , and a last message to the sweetest girl on earth , Yi Jun Ng .
Yi Jun , I love you ttm (: Thank you for sending me sweet messages , talking about me in your blog , listening to my rants and accepting everything . You're really awesome . Thank you , for always being there for me (: You rock you know ? You really do . I miss you my dearest G6 :3
Isabel, i've read your blog. I didnt know that you've been under so much depression. I'm sorry that I couldnt be w you this while.
Why envy your brother? Because he have a better childhood than you? Seriously, you dont have to be envy-ing your brother. I really scares me when I know that your back to your old self. The negative girl. Please, dont cut yourself anymore. I dont know if you still do, but just dont cut yourself. It's not worth it to harm yourself for a person that doesnt care for you. Dont always think on the negative side. Think of the good things. See, you have friends that care for you. You are now living w your wonderful dad. You've now started school and have awesome schoolmates. Yeah, you have to visit your mum whenever you go back to Singapore. But think again, your mum is alone now. You've left her and there's no one w her. I know that she abuses you. But afterall, she's the one that raised you up. I dont know what your thinkin now. Neither do i know what you've experieced. I dont knoe how you feel. You said that God didnt answer your prayers, didnt help you much in anyway. Maybe he wants you to overcome the obstacles by YOURSELF? So that you'll grow up and be more mature?
Now that you've start school, i hope you'll start anew. Dont think about those unhappy past anymore. Just burn it at the back of your mind. Think of those happy memories you have w your friends.
Think of everythin that can make you happy.
I was really happy that all your classmates are very friendly. I dont know if your still unhappy bout you life, but cherish it.
God gave you a life, for you to live it to the fullest. I dont think that this message will make you feel any better, but all I want to show you is that i care for you. Take care:)
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