I've been fucking sad these days talking to teachers and Jun about my problems .
I really don't know if I can take it Its 1am now . Dad's going to see Mum later and talk about me moving to Hong Kong .
I confirm going already . I swear I'll miss everyone like shit .
I'm crying now . Really .
Fml . I've been crying a lot these days . My eyes have been swelling and all .
Bleagh , don't want to talk about it .
I have nothing to blog about cause I'm really not in the mood to blog .
So I hope you enjoyed all the pictures which display my emotions right now .
I'm sad , lonely , tired and alone .
I don't know what I'm going to do now .
Hey there lonely girl
ReplyDeleteI accidentally clicked on a picture of yours that I found on an image search about our rock band. I read what you wrote and felt like commenting.
Life seems to be like your blog: things show up to be shinny, promising and safe as they look at first glance making you positive about their good nature just the way your blog starts...
...And then things that you believed are forming a "strong and happy you" just seem not to be enough or they become the very same thing that's causing your "bad mood" not to use the word depression just like your blog ends.
I feel bad, I must admit, because there was this father and son who used to come to our liqueur store to by refreshments and stuff like that and we used to talk with his son about our rock bands etc. I could see he was sad but he used to hide it well like saying "there is no point to express how i really feel". It goes about 5 months now that we heard he died from overdose. The guy was nothing like that... but still I could tell and did nothing about it. So I promised myself next time to let people know that I'm here to talk things over ;)
You know I lost my father during a normal day, out of the blue, he dropped dead on our kitchen table... I also lost my "best friend" who I knew since I was 6 years old and we had all those dreams about our rock band for 15 years together :P
Some things are our fault, some things are not but it's how we're dealing them that makes all the difference... There are more to say but, maybe next time...
Check our band's facebook page:
http://www.facebook.com/sunraininlife
Read in "notes" our lyrics (childish lyrics) and I hope you find a friend you never had... I hope you see yourself in those lyrics and seek for a deeper truth to what's going on in your life!
Stay alive!
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